I haven't blogged much in the past 4 months. Many, many reasons for the lack of time... trying to sell our house, both of us working a lot, planning a wedding... etc. All matters that consumed my time, and my mind. I wanted to blog, but choosing between sleep and typing, sleep won. Looking back, I probably really needed the release of thought.
To add to the excitement, we found out we were pregnant. We were both ecstatic. Well, at least for a few weeks, until the excitement gave way to spending mornings, and some evenings with my head in the toilet. Constant nausea, constant exhaustion. This little being absorbed every once of energy - energy that I didn't even know I had to give. Brayden, working, running a business, planning a wedding took nearly everything I had - God managed to squeeze another little blessing in. That's what motherhood shows us - you give and give - somehow, somewhere you muster up the strength, happily.
We made it through telling Brayden, I was nervous about how he would feel about sharing me. But, he handled it beautifully, like a big brother. He's gonna be great.
We made it through the wedding. I started to feel better about 2 weeks before the big day. I was able to enjoy it without the aching feeling of throwing-up. I was able to squeeze into my not very forgiving wedding dress. Our day was beautiful - Our day was perfect.
The following Wednesday, my belly bump poked through, and has been growing steadily since then. I have retired any prepregnancy pants - and most shirts. I find comfort in elastic, granny panties, and a full coverage bra.
We had the coveted 20 week ultrasound yesterday. It's amazing to see that little being swimming and kicking around in there - to feel, and watch the kick on the screen is amazing. To watch the yawn and the roll over from the tiniest little person, not even weighing in at a pound. I cried. John watch in awe, laughing nervously in disbelief. Then, the baby was in just the right position to get a look a the goods... Would it be a girl or a boy? Then we saw it. Brayden would be a big brother to an aodrable little....
Let the shopping begin!