... I love shoes. Really. I think if there is anything I am mildly obsessed over it would definitely be shoes. I love to think about what my shoe closet would will look like when I have this beautiful organized closet full of b.e.a -utiful shoes! Strappy ones, shiny ones, flats and boots... and you can not leave out adorable little sandals... but I have a soft spot for high pointy heels. My toes are formed to a point because it doesn't matter how painful, I will suffer through it to wear my cute heels. I have to stop myself from buying so many... I stop and think, where would I wear these? I don't go out. I don't get dressed up. Not anymore. I wear my pj's to the store. It's a miracle if I even shower on the weekends! (- tmi??)
I am starting to do this - learning to walk in my shoes. I love to reference the 'lemons' in my life. I don't mind admitting that I have made mistakes along the way and I fully embrace that I will continue to make more, and that's ok as long as I am learning. I think, in the past I was so terrified of making the wrong decisions that it actually pushed me into making what I thought was a 'safer' choice and not what I actually wanted for my life. However, as I always say the paths that have lead me to where I am is exactly where I am supposed to be, and I am comfortable with that.
I love reading Marc and Angel. I think to myself, 'how did he / she come up with these brilliant words?' It is so wise, yet so simple.
"Life’s best lessons are usually learned at the worst times and from the worst mistakes. So yes, you will fail sometimes. The faster you accept this, the faster you can get on with being brilliant. You’ll never be 100% sure it will work, but you can always be 100% sure doing nothing won’t work. Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing. So get out there and try! Either you succeed or you learn a vital lesson. Win – Win."
I have become a 'do-er' lately. I have stopped making excuses for the limitation and roadblocks. Where there is a will there is a way - So, I keep finding a way. And, I am going to keep doing because I have found happiness for myself in the doing. Before, I lived for others and for their dreams that I adapted into my own. As a mom, you naturally put your child first - and, there isn't anything wrong with that. LB is still my first. But, I am a close second. I have found for myself things that I really love. Actually, I have so many things I want to do that I am having a hard time fitting them all in.
I have about a half dozen furniture pieces waiting in the wings for a little face lift. I am lining up my little photography sessions. I sit and crochet at night (still not very good at it but I like it). And, I have some secret projects that I am creating in my head. Hopefully this summer they will come to fruition.
So, I may not walk comfortably in my own shoes - bets are they are an uncomfortable pair of heels - but, I will do it with a smile and as gracefully as I can.